I've been giving myself some pep-talks and gearing myself up for this weekend (rugby team reunion) and I think I'm ready. Tonight I'll be planning out my food for the three days and making a large serving of the chicken and broccoli I had last week so I don't have to cook while I'm there or be tempted by what everyone else is eating. I will be okay......*deep breath*.....
Anyways, tonight is my second weigh in. I've been a little nervous, especially since I ate everything under the sun Saturday-Monday and have only been back on track for 3 days (if I count today). I weighed myself last night and if my scale is right I've lost 2-3 lbs. That made me a little less scared to go in today. I've never been good at being honest. And I don't mean in general, but like when I know I was doing something I shouldn't have been- like the first few times I went to the Endocrinologist after she told me to quit smoking and I said I did.. when really I did for maybe 2 days. And I even did it with my journal. For Medifast we keep a food journal- just writing down what meals we've had and at what time, checking off that we've had our 8 glasses of water, ate our lean and green meal, how many condiments we had, if we remembered to take out Omega3s...and yes, I was keeping up with it until Saturday when I decided I didn't want them to know how miserably I had failed. It would have looked so bad writing that I had 3 s'mores and 4 beers on Saturday night, or that I had grilled cheese on Saturday and Monday, or that I had corn... a starchy vegetable. I didn't want to go in there, have them see it then ask me questions. I'm not going here to talk about my feelings. Ugh.
And while I'd like to say that I'm going to go back and fill in all the bad things I ate... I don't think I am. I'm just not at that point yet. I don't want the interrogation that will come with the honesty. My roommate has a book about birthdays and people born on August 19th are secretive. Yes. Yes I am. And that when we are ready to reveal our secrets we do it in a grand manner. Yes. Yes I do. It was pretty spot on... even down to the fact that we need to make regular doctors appointments otherwise our minor illnesses may become chronic because we don't like to deal with them. Sounds pretty damn right.
Now don't get me wrong. I'm not some crazy pathological liar (or am I?) who doesn't know how to be honest. It's just certain things... like what I mentioned above. I believe I'm honest with my friends because I can tell them anything (unless it has to do with feelings... don't hug me). I ask honest questions and expect honest answers (most of the time) and while I know this sounds somewhat hypocritical I look at it as one of those... use-it-when-necessary kinds of things. If that makes sense. I'll be honest of the situation calls for it but if you just got your haircut and I think it looks dumb, but you've spent the last hour crying about how it looks dumb... clearly I'm going to tell you it doesn't look dumb.
Okay. I'm rambling. Back to the reason we're all here.... I mentioned in the last post that I got some new food. Since then I've tried some more and below are some pics and the verdict. Somehow I did forget to get a picture of the Maryland Crab Soup... but you know what... I don't care because it was GROSS! All of the things I make in my handy little soup cup with the detachable spoon and lid have this funny taste. I'm starting to wonder if I shouldn't be warming them up in there. I'll give the crab soup another chance but I think I'm going to give up on the cup for now...even though it's awesome.
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The eggs look good!
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