this is the last time I will be FAT on Fat Tuesday

If you know me, you know I'm not religious and I've definitely never given anything up for lent. I have always had the cynical attitude that "I highly doubt that Jesus cares if you give up carbs for 40 days." But, you know what - I'm going to try lent. Not in a religious way, but in a way for myself to see if I can do it, and Lent just gives me a reason to push myself.

So here goes. 40 days. No cheating. No excuses.

that I'm a procrastinator

So I may have lied a little bit. I feel like i just have one excuse after another. Trust me, I know.
But for real this time.. I'm doing it.

So "what had happened was" I wrote my last post right before the Super Bowl. Big mistake. My roommate had friends over for it and of course I couldn't help but indulge on the little pigs in a blanket, and wings.....and ribs......and pizza..... Yes, I went overboard. But that Monday I was back to it. BUT THEN I decided to go to NY, and nothing good happens when I visit my college friends in NY. It was a weekend full of delicious food and booze and needless to say, I'm still fat.

So it's Thursday now. Got back from NY on Monday. Been back on the diet since yesterday (shhh, I can hear you judging me), and I really am feeling motivated. I know you're thinking, "oh, she's said this before," well true, I have. But I'm not asking you to hold your breath... I'm just saying how I'm feeling going into my millionth attempt. (Yes, I did just have a little temper tantrum there, did you catch that?)

Anyways, I have my weigh in today. My goal at my last weigh-in was 3 pounds and 3 workouts. HAHAHAHAHAHA. right. No way that happened. But on the plus side my roommate got an xbox kinect for xmas and some cool workout game, so last night I did set up my account and my goals. The woman on that thing is MEAN!!! I walked away because I was cooking dinner while I was setting it up, and because the game can see you she started yelling at me. Rude.

sorry this post is all over the place, but if you read it you're probably used to that. More later. Can't focus.

~Jen

I'm taking playlist suggestions

Well friends, it's time to get back to it! I have a few months before summer is upon us again and now that my group of friends is making our memorial day weekend a tradition, I need to be ready!

Things have calmed down a bit at work and I don't feel so crazy. My mom said the diet should be easier when I'm so busy because my food is picked for me basically, but for some reason it just wasn't working like that for me. This diet takes a lot of will-power (and I don't have much) and being constantly stressed lowers my will-power even more.. therefore I eat what I want. And I did. But yesterday I finally went back into Medifast, and I'm starting fresh.

As of right now I'm down 7.5 lbs from where I started back in September (at least I think it was september). It sucks to think about how far along I would be if I had been able to stick with it, but I guess there's no use in thinking about that because, well, I'm still fat, and I didn't do it.

So here's what I NEED from you. I need support. I need someone to smack my hand and say "stop it, you're fat." I can pretty much rely on Selwa for that... so what I actually need from YOU, whoever you are reading this, is a song or two. I need music that I didn't put on a playlist myself, I need surprises. So, I want you lovely people to send me the best workout songs you can think of. It can be fast-paced to get me running, motivational... whatever. If I don't already have the song I'm just going to download it without listening to it, add it to the playlist, and let myself be surprised. Leave your suggestions in the comments, email them to me (jleighgreen@gmail.com), text them to me... and thanks!


until next time... which won't be as far apart as the last few,
Jen

P.s.
I moved. Harper needed a friend. I got another cat. He's evil. His name is Bruce Wayne.